I lost my office job because I misses too many days. Employer never knew it was because of paranoia hallucinations and anxiety. I was too ashamed and confused. They did suspect I lied about the real reason and they dud notice strange bevaviour. But normies don’t know any better, they don’t know what flight of ideas or being locked inside your head is.
I still can’t help talking nonsense to myself, some delusions, paranoia, panic from hallucinations. I occasionally do a volunteer job but even that is like once a month and even then I can’t help but behave strange.