Well I’m 37 and I’ve been sick since 30, no dating during all that time and I’m likely to die alone. That makes me sad very often. I tried dating before 30 but almost everyone I asked out said no, probably because I’m not particularly good looking.
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Yes, I do get depressed very easily.
Every time something goes bad I feel like I’m at bottom of the ocean.
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It’s definitely part of the illness @Wave
I get it all the time too, especially when I’m alone.
Meds just make it worse.
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Me too. Every time I stop my antidepressants I end up actively suicidal. I need it to live. I believe it’s chemical and that my brain doesn’t produce the chemicals it should
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my condition definitely affects my depression, but i still get depressed when i have no hallucinations/delusions
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I’m an ultra rapid cycler, so I can become suicidal out of the blue for an hour or so then the next hour I’ll feel euphoric and full of positivity.
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I think that is why my depression faded. I was already depressed before my diagnosis because of a bad experience I had, but I became really depressed after being diagnosed, I think just the thought that “I have schizophrenia” affected me. But once I came to terms with it, it was like I had closure, and I started to feel better. Then I got closure on the thing that initially made me a little depressed too.
I’m just different now, I no longer have depressing thoughts or feelings, and even when I think about the things that made me depressed I don’t get depressed. Once I got closure on both those things my depression lifted and I have been happier ever since.
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I am frequently mildly depressed. Every couple of months, sometimes much longer, I’ll go into a severe depression. The kind where you contemplate suicide because the emotional torment is just too unbearable.
Thankfully, I am still alive. But there are times when I don’t know if I’ll make it though the night to see the next day.
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I have suffered with bouts of depression my whole life to varying degrees. Sometimes it’s worse than others. It usually historically started in October and lifted in February. But as I got older it just came and stayed. I would get the sensation of being in the bottom of a deep, dark well. No light could get to me, no person could get through to me. I felt completely alone. Suicide seemed like the only relief. I was so far beyond sad there are no words. I was diagnosed with major depression many times. Antidepressants did little or made me manic then I would have to stop them and crash again. Depression for me has been the worst thing I’ve dealt with as far as my mental health goes and has affected my life the most. I hope the Cymbalta I’m taking now works for a long time because it’s been so nice to not have that to worry about for the last couple of years.
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I’m glad someone here gets it.
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I just gets stressed /scared / worried
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What are you trying to say?
Maybe I’m misunderstanding you?
I’m really trying to be open minded.
I havent had the diagnose major depression.
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I’m saying I wish people realized how powerful they, by themselves, are.
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Yes this is what my therapist is trying to instill in me.
But I still need meds to get me by.
I appreciate your answer though @fractaled
It makes a lot of sense.
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I was never depressed in my life, my only diagnosis is sz.
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Actually I wish I had depression instead of sz negative symptoms. Depression is much easier to treat.
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I have both, negative symptoms and depression @Aziz , and I can’t take antidepressants.
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I read that some mood stabilizers act like antidepressants? Idk much about other mental illnesses than sz but I learned about sza and bipolar here on the forum.
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I used to but don’t anymore.
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