Hi
I hope you can read the entirety
It’s what remains of my poems from the last 12 years
Take a solemn promise
with important over tones,
give it a whole day to pressurise
and boil down with the lid on
don’t give it room to breathe,
but put flowers round the saucepan
and let’s not bother with it,
we can go without food for a few days
Waiting
Our wishes turn to dust
Maybe I’ll listen
Rays of sunlight burning through each second,
loving me in every tiny little cell
Can we play “let’s not tell the neighbours
“we’re not having sex at the minute” instead please.
Flutterby
How does a girl like that learn to hold her head up?
How do you cry inner tears, she’s asking
I pray to the fertility goddess for my sister, she said
I pray sofly, hug people with more of a clue.
“I know you were the kid trailing behind” he said
“Okay then I’ll call you ¾, I’ll marry your”
But he wouldn’t
“You’re a rainbow without purple”, said the step mum.
All you need to do with your five colours is to lose a child
The streets answer me now, other people have problems…
“Ugly, Ugly, Cinderella’s a Horror story.”
“not for Cinderella,” said John.
Scatter
Spell me slowly
calm down, i love you,
take my running and throw it away,
give my little pieces medals
for thinking they can survive on their own,
soflly lie me down an hold me,
don’t give me any more space
no more time to think.
Wash
You paint my false life
with threads of every colour,
You agitate my feelings with your fingers,
finding gold,
like sunlight
You love parts of me I cannot
even touch,
So I know my blood is not my own.
Changing
I wrap you around me like a
warm
scarf Button you up like a coat
Pull me on like gloves and boots
And make snowballs with you
Romeo you are my new
shoes
my black and white norwegian forrest cat with matted fur
in the wild somewhere
my chococolate fondu with two forks and lots of strawberries
as if that would be nice
my magnum of Champagne that
I’d just get sick on
my epic satisfying t.v. drama on a cold winter’s night
My nap in the sun.
My gaze at the stars
Spell me slowly
Jumbled
puzzle
suggestions
hinting
darling,
thinking…
kissed-complete
parsley cryptic
tactile instant
green tree
trouble halo
lava lamp
cinnamon Spring
Amour guru
vanilla Summer
perfect circle
saffron Autumn
car keys
cardamom Winter
skate park
dark arts
so surreal,
real deal
waiting pages
our joiurney
we swam up the river
with the tide
and you drove me home
in my car,
dead serious
big issue
obvious confetti
stepping stones
steal all the covers
heated car seats
call off the search
plastic lymeric
on our fingers
breath
chilli bitter chocolate
on a wooden spoon
chain-reaction-ordinary
and
pudding
every
day
pause…
I
want
to
spend
the
rest
of
my
life
with
you
xxxx
my mind falls into my heart and i’m
inside my body and there you are,
like pastry or cream or soft linen,
there in my life there every moment alongside along with me
my heart expands. totally
my skin fizzes…
you beside me
you in my heart
I can’t think, don’t want to,
I can’t scream, don’t want to
I can’t breath for my love for you
diamonds in the air and under our feet
sun never setting
dark never creeping
sunshine coming out from
behind your eyes.
beautiful,
green
It should hurt
how much I love you
why doesn’t it hurt,
to love you
I don’t’ know why it feels like you’re
in here with me, like you just stepped in, climbed inside me
and made yourself at home,
you’re me…
you’re me…
I don’t want to say my heart bursts
with love for you because that
sounds so boring
Like it’s from a shitty novel.
It burst like a tickly Champagne
supernova
But that’d be from a Rubbish song
All the people living down ther just
started to jump up and down
cheering and blowing party horns
They opened their windows and let in
the sun n invited everyone round
like Mamma Mia, singing while putting
the sheets up
Polterabend going on inn my heart
and all over the rest of my body (
which needs one towel and another
for my hair don’t you know)
Looks like
i have valour to excess
people milling around
ending up putting clothing on bit by bit
true selves are revealed,
Look like they’re dancing on ice while I crawl on
cut glass
in a bubble, in a sea of bubbles,
bashed around but keeping their
shape
underwater
Your love is like the taste of a
fine wine in my mouth…
The lingering sultry and sweet
balanced with bitter,
Like strawberries with fresh black coffee,
The glow, the headiness,
The anticipation mixed with experience…
love as a feeling even if love is a doing word.
And you do. and I do…
The read it as it’s printed one.
You’re my ‘everything man’
You tie me together and disarm me…
This is essensual
You put your feet one in front of the other,
As though leading an army
Against chaos, against dissolving,
An against-gesture of a true starlit image of a Roman statue.
I feel you more safe I feel you and I’m not damaged
I don’t even go against the tide
I AM A TREE TRUNK. YOU
SURRPOUND ME,
LIVING… THE BRANCHES, THE INSECTS
AND BIRDS AND THE LEAVES.
YOU UNITE ME.
WE ARE
In between loving you and not loving you
There exists a space I have never felt
My body satisfied that it will not be thrown out if I drop myself for a minute or a few months
Hope is here
And all of a sudden I love you again