Ill-will has left a stain upon my Soul
What to do to Purify myself…?
Scream like a child?
Roar like the bull?
Tear myself to shreds, in some masochistic blood-letting?
I’m a Fool, not an idiot
Not a victim, but The Survivor
And somewhere in this Darkness, I know that a Light still shines
Maybe there’s a light that doesn’t literally look like light, like I can still read even though I feel void of light, deprived of life and love, I think I just need someone to hang with, maybe watch a movie on TV.
There is a place mentally ill people go a clubhouse but I think it has been closed since the pandemic and I’m on a waiting list for in person group therapy and I’m going to start going to in person appointments for therapy and pdoc real soon. I’ll look into the clubhouse soon, I could bring my guitar, it could make me popular, let people play with it, I don’t mind, it’s only a $200 nylon stringed guitar. But I have put a lot of energy into it.
@Cragger how long is your guitar practice and how often? I practice guitar thirty minutes a day and now I’m adding 30 minutes of mandolin practice a day. Days I’m tired I’ll practice mandolin 12 minutes.
When I got my first mandolin I couldn’t tune it because I didn’t know the tuners now have a assortment of instruments you set it for my digital tuner is from 1992 funky and big I’ll keep maybe Hollywood can use it some day in a movie. When I finally tuned my second mandolin right and played a chord I was like, " now that is musical!"