I want to share something with you guys. About my diagnose and medicine I’m on. The story of my life…
So, I have paranoid schizophrenia, not good, init?
My daily dose:
• Aripiprazole 30 mg
• Quetiapine 800 mg
• Lorazepam up to 7.5 mg sometimes even more…
• Haloperidole & Diazepam (all together) shots every week!
• Lamotrigine 200 mg
My symptoms still remain the same. I’m on the medc since 2014 - till now.
I’m still having severe symptoms. Visual & Auditory hallucinations every day. I see a girl, her name is Erin, she is giving me advice about life. We are talking… Also, according to my psychiatrist I have dellucions (Local authority is controling me and causing my symptoms, that’s true. I’m not calling it dellusions). What’s more, apathy, no motivatiom, sedation… and sometimes suicidal thoughts which comes from voices. They make me feel suicidal. Yes, I had suicidal attempts not once or twise. Many times. Am I suicidal now? Yes, I am. I just wanna run away from it all… I used to take overdoses. I was doing mix of the meds. I was in intensive care unit few times. I’m still overdosing but not that often.
My last severe overdose was less that a year ago. Why severe? I took 80 pills of Lorazepam - 200 mg overall. My memory went blank. I don’t remembet the whole week. So I can’t make a comment about this overdose.
I’m on so many pills like a pill head for christ sake! Well, at least it works a bit, before medc I was out of it! OUT OF IT! But still… I’m not well.
Any of you taking more? Please share your experience and comments!
Do you think I’ll get better one day without the medc. Or I will be on medc for the rest of my life…
Any questions? Feel free to ask.
Thanks in advance!