i used to be like that. no interest or thought at all about alcohol. I was mostly into sports and working out before I started drinking in college.
after I gave up my ambitions alcohol was always my go to. to replace the lack of purpose I had developed. then eventually, I got tired of drinking and started to sober up.
im trying to stay sober now. but I do think about alcohol at times. im more likely to substitute other substances to relax me when I need to calm down now. like cbd hemp flower or a couple cigarettes every once in a while. I should probably kick those habits too. but it just gets me further away from alcohol where I don’t think about it anymore.
today is a good day and im happy to be sober, which is my biggest struggle, is getting used to this new normal and a return back to my more youthful years. sometimes there is just nothing to do here and it makes me want to drink but not today.
I also don’t think I need AA but am thinking about going. to get me out of the house, meet a few people, and keep me sincere about staying sober. but sometimes I think it’s better to just forget the whole thing and get on with my new normal.