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Pdoc paranoia (memories)


#1

I remember being in the hospital and thinking that my pdoc was poisoning my food with a drug to enhance pyschic abilities so that she could harvest ghosts from me as part of a secret government project to steal my thoughts. I was also convinced that I was on the set of American Horror Story and everyone (patients, nurses, doctors) were just actors.

:laugh: It seems ridiculous now but I was so convinced it was true. I was scared to death of her, and I was sure everyone was talking about me.


#2

Yeah, delusions can get pretty crazy. It’s not too terribly complicated, but some time ago, my voices were telling me that the lady in the green hat would kill me, and I had to let her because if I didn’t die, the darkness would break into my soul and use me as a force for evil. I’m pretty sure I posted about it on the forum, actually. I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. Like, that doesn’t make any sense. I must’ve been out of my fu cking mind.


#3

My delusion that started my psychotic episode was thinking that God told me to isolate myself from everyone, delusions can seriously mess you up


#4

My worst has gotta be thinking the TVs were cameras. I know who I thought was watching me but I won’t mention it. I felt like a prisoner in my own home,every time I would walk into the room (with a tv) I would hear the voices conversing about how I looked or if I looked nervous (the voices thought I knew secrets about them:delusion related) I would spend days in my room with no technology whatsoever,only leaving to get something to eat


#5

When I was in hospital I thought I could control peoples minds. I felt like all of the staff there weren’t sentient and I was living in a simulation. It felt like all their responses were fake and that I (as a supreme solitary alien being) created them and the world so that I could live as a human and wouldn’t be lonely anymore.


#6

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