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Paranoid About my return to work tomorrow

I have worked on this project for about 5-6 weeks

It’s so close to being finished, and should be this week.

Throughout this project I have been suffering from severe depressive episodes and had to take time off.

Maybe I have had 1/5th of the time off sick

Today I had this horrible feeling of dread when I woke up, and I was shaking and did not know what to do

In the end I stood down the sub contractor I work with (I will still pay him), and I texted the customer to say I was sick

The customer has not replied

Do you think he’s sick of me being sick?

All I have told them previously was that I had a medication issue being dealt with by a consultant

I really don’t want to go back, but I don’t have a choice

Then there is the issue of do I start the next project when I feel this low?

My existence at the moment is not my most attractive quality

:broken_heart:

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Even if he is, he’s still better off than you. Don’t worry about him. I think you did the right thing by taking time off for yourself.

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I hate that you feel so bad.

But you are just going to have to power through with rest of your project.

I wouldn’t worry too much about the customer being upset,

Especially since you plan to finish the rest of it tomorrow.

Right now I don’t feel like doing stuff, but I absolutely have to.

I’m just going to go into autopilot and get it done.

That’s what you have to do too.

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Sorry to hear man. What if you hire another person temporarily to work on it and you supervise? You probably won’t make any money on it but atleast you can get it done and keep your reputation going good.

Hope you feel better soon dude

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People are busy and often they don’t react to text messages. Perhaps he don’t know what to say? Hope you manage to finish the job and find some relieve.

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I did 8am to 3pm today

It’s better than nothing I guess

Need to get sorted

Having problems getting my meds at the moment, so got to phone up people now to get it sorted

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Keep up what you can, and don’t worry about what you can’t do :slight_smile:

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I have bailed from work again today

Think the issue may be the heat and my meds making me feel ill

Does anyone know if SSRI’s cause this, as this has been the main change?