Over intellectualism to merit autonomy

I just googled delusions so now I know about the delusions I have so I’m more self aware. Now I can be aware when they happen and disassociate myself from my symptoms and diagnose myself, so I’m pretty much still sick and I’ve taken away the power from my doctor by doing this; this allows me to have more control of a situation that literally lacks control. Anyone that exhibits ideas that counteract my over intellectualization of control I disregard and further debate to reinforce my philosophy.