Felt a cool liquid go from your spine up in to your brain? After it went into my brain, my perception of reality changed into that of a dream like state and then diagnosis of Schizophrenia.
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On the day i was Diagnosed - i actually cried for 3 days. It was the pure relief that i was understood.
Coppers would turn up, and threaten me with a Section 136 if i didnt take the meds lol.
I literally had to have a mental breakdown in front of the shrink, after suffering for 6 months.
I had enough by then.
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I didn’t feel
Relief. I didn’t know what it was or what it meant.
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No it was a slow descent.
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Mine would come and go at first so I passed it off as other things until the tactile and audio hallucinations became full blown.
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Nothing like that so far as I remember, not that my memory of that time is fantabulous.
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It took a long time for my illness to develop, it was a downward spiral from the age of 15 until diagnosis at 20
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When I came to the realization that I had schizoaffective and not bipolar years ago, I felt clarity.
Finally it all made sense
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I just woke up and saw a dog in the bathroom cabinet mirror looking right back at me growling…
I may have been hallucinating since I was a teen though, I tended to believe and think I could hear people’s thoughts… I would stare at people a lot to try and tone into their thoughts…
I knew what I was dealing with though, my biological father was sz and I knew there was a huge chance that I’d get it, I was really scared though… I remember the nurse at my doctor’s office she kept saying hallucinations don’t always mean sz it could be an infection, I told her it was unlikely that I have a long line of sz in my family so I was pretty sure of what it was.
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Mine was a slow descent too and degradation since kid… its even myself, who knew that i was mentally ill probably before the dx even…
But your thing sounds good to me in a way… It even was close to smth good, the kundalini thing…
If you are worried by your dx, your experience sounds really good though and i find, that you can get out of that with a bit of meds, some info and just maybe grounding slowly to the reality at the tempo, which you need… 
You were fine before this experience? But it really seems quite well… is it quite painful now , if i could ask? I hope that not heh
You can do it!!!
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I wanted to deal with it myself but they said i lacked capacity & the p/doc at the time ordered me to be held down and injected, my notion to deal with it myself soon wore off and i had to start a regime of taking psychiatric drugs.
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I kept on getting hot flashes before i was diagnosed. My anxiety was terrible
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I had a decline over years. I had to find out through a doctor, by their accident, at a veterans hospital. Not good.
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I felt mostly hungry. Being schizophrenic is hard work and really made me work up an appetite.
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The day of my first hospitalization I was very paranoid and in the morning I had a very frightening sensation that something had burst in my head.
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The night before my first hospitalization I had so much pain in my brain that I called it torture to my voices.
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Mine popped. It got worse and worse over the course of a few years, when finally, in a moment, it went from prodromal to full-blown psychosis. Literally, like turning the lights out, all the pleasure left my body. I started to panic, and my delusions got turned up to 11.
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It were days.
First a question in my head " who am i ?", like a quiz, then a warm light in my head, thinking was gone, at the same time i knowed i know everything.
From day to day the light faded away to a ring, i was manic, living without thinking, to describe it correct it was more a view from outside at me, depersonalisation.
After a week i had a look in the mirror, i saw the ugliest face i’ve ever seen, like in a horror movie, bloody skin. ( I forgot this part for a long time )
I stand at that picture in the mirror, it became more and more beautiful, it get to the beautifullest face i’ve ever seen, light golden
A few days later i got agressive, destroyed all mirrors in the house…ambulance
(psylocybine induced psychosis )
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I had a clearly perceived moment of spatial disorientation. My brain must have shifted into another mode right then. After that I was increasingly paranoid, forgetful and voice-ridden.
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