Om's madhouse, infinite volume

Om_Sadasiva · May 13, 2021, 3:28pm

My china pig is my innocent self,
before sz.

Om_Sadasiva · May 13, 2021, 3:33pm

I was an innocent kid once.
I still am, in a way.
I still carry my little Om with me.

Om_Sadasiva · May 13, 2021, 3:41pm

Sometimes i think
that if i didn’t have
this alcoholic abusive
father but a normal one
i wouldn’t be schizophrenic.
But maybe I wouldn’t be
who I am now.
Maybe it was a necessary
lesson for me.
His toxicity taught me
not to be toxic

Om_Sadasiva · May 13, 2021, 5:20pm

I went to the kitchen, prepared for everything.
But nothing happened.
But still it feels haunted.

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 5:45am

Another morning.
Struggle again.
I’m having the first coffee

Speedy · May 14, 2021, 5:48am

Good morning! I just had my second cup of coffee! How are you doing this morning?

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 5:49am

Hello.
I struggle.
Now i will take my
morning meds.
How are you?

Speedy · May 14, 2021, 5:50am

Well I’m fine. I forgot to take my meds for two days in a row now because I fall a sleep on the couch. I feel weird.

Pat6398 · May 14, 2021, 5:53am

Ouch, if I missed two days of meds I’d be a wreck.

Hi Om, how is the madhouse today?

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 6:12am

I have morning depression.
How are you?

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 6:12am

Two days? Wow.
That’s bad.
Take them asap

Speedy · May 14, 2021, 6:15am

I will take them after lunch.

Morning depression!? Perhaps a refreshing walk will help??

Pat6398 · May 14, 2021, 6:15am

It’s mid-afternoon here and I’m pretty chill. I have no plans for the rest of the day so I am listening to psychedelic music and browsing the forum.

I hope your morning depression passes soon, is it something you get often? Can you go and sit outside and look at that lovely water like in the picture further up the thread?

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 6:16am

I will walk the dog later.
How do you feel?
Do you have symptoms?

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 6:18am

I live by the sea.
I’m used to it.
I will sit quietly
and meditate.
I will calm
or i will make
voices louder.
We’ll see.

Speedy · May 14, 2021, 6:19am

Nothing unusual. I always hear voices so nothing is new. I have some anxiety. I feel a little bit weird but nothing bad. Hehe!

Speedy · May 14, 2021, 6:19am

Do you fish??1515

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 6:20am

My father is fisherman.
He has a big boat.
But i don’t like it at all.
Whenever i go with him,
i have anxiety and voices. Lol

Speedy · May 14, 2021, 6:24am

Ok! No point of going if you can’t enjoy it. Too bad, fishing can be meditative.

Om_Sadasiva · May 14, 2021, 6:28am

“Louisa is waiting for you
in the kitchen, with legs open.”