Same as usual. Cracked brain and voices!
What do they say?
When I’m in psychosis,
whether voices or delusions,
my brain feels different.
I can tell the difference.
A strange wave of energy
flows in my brain.
Neurons are on fire.
I’m in euphoria and ecstasy.
Euphoria ecstasy… sometimes dysphoria rhough and that’s never fun
Yes, in bad times
confusion, brain fog, despair,
lack of concentration,
lack of ego,
disorganized thoughts etc.
But mostly it’s positive/euphoric
I’m a lot more depressive than not.
I would think that feeling dead
is peaceful and tranquil.
It is once I truly accepted it, I fought it for months and that was not euphoric
If you will find the right meds,
you will get out of your delusion
and you will feel nice being in
Being sober again,
away from fake feelings of delusions,
Being rooted in reality.
I miss being in reality but meds don’t seem to work for me
What meds do you take?
How many have you tried?
I was on abilify maintena last. I’ve been on so many I’ve lost count. I’m guessing 7 or 8 different ones.
And still you haven’t found the right ones?
I’ve tried more than 10 but still have symptoms.
I guess i will always have symptoms.
It’s inevitable in my case.
But, but, with the current meds,
I have experienced normalcy.
Even for a few days or weeks.
It was beautiful.
I felt powerful again and in charge of my life.
In psychosis i have lost my life.
No they all stop working after a couple months or shorter.
What meds are you on?
Now i take
It’s the best period of my life.
Even my hallucinations and delusions
have matured with me
I think I may ask for clozapine but I don’t know if I can do it realistically.
Did it help you fast?
I’m not sure.
I think it’s a good med.
I take 300mg.
Max dose is 900.
How often do you get labs done?
This is Thorazine??? I take this.