Today I celebrate 4 years on the forum.
It was spring of 2017 that i got diagnosed.
A little later, July, i joined this forum.
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Shouldnât it be your cake day then???
How are things om? Iâm making salmon with rice and wasabi. Yum!!
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Yes, itâs my cake day.
I have some voices and ideas.
You?
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Happy cake day. Seems youâve been here for longer
You know what they say
Time goes slow when youâre schizo 
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Haha yes. Itâs true.
When you suffer, time goes slowly
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Its not a real matrix. The matrix is just a projection of consciousness. Its not the real world. I believe we live in a quantum multi-verse. The M-space frequency or the waves at the core of this multi-verse are a sort of etheric Matrix I came up with an M-theory of everything I should prob. write it down sometime.
Its string theory so there are kinetic trails or frequenciesâsound, words/symbols, sensations feel smell touch taste see, experience and perception and memories. The core of the experience is a relative perception, or the point of perceptionâso what you focus on. So focus on calm thoughts and selfâself establishment. I rebuilt myself from scratch through philosophical research too. I lost context, space time and EGO-dissolution. Maybe mystics do this too on purpose.
The EGO-is the contextual point of perception, the reciever, the collection and assimulation of information the senses etc. and then above that is the Higher Self, the Guiding force behind our conscious decisions, such as collective memes Good or Bad, social expectations, cultural fixations.
And you can cure cancer through behavior and Genetics, basically you need to be able to teach the cells to heal through antioxident therapies oxygen and Mrna. I have had a more thorough theory and it got copied but thats good I want people to know so it can be cured one day, childhood cancer is bad and I want these children to live lives. DNA and Genes are adaptive, you can teach yourself to evolve through small patterns of change and behavior or evolution, mutation, everything in every day in a minor mutation, evolution is an expansive mutation, minor mutations are minor evolutions.
So the matrix is the energy core or the power source of the world, and possible universe how it worksâits dark matter and M-quanta static electric sparks that are likeâŚwell they basically mold or adapt to the energy around them. Like static but physical static and invisible to the sight. So if you were to fall below the spectrum and you would see the waves, the waves bend to the highest mass index. So its like water, the water fills in the spaces, but its water that is the collective of all there is.
The Matrix is a beautiful thing when we learn to use it for Good and channel it for a purposeful existence.
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God is the programmer.
Programmer is the God.
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Itâs not birthday.
Itâs forum anniversary
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haha yeah I have thought of it that way beforeâŚbut I think God is even further above thatâŚ
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Hey om happy cake day
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Thank you, buddy.
Howâs your cotard?
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Still there. Itâs hard to believe anything is real everything seems so fake
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Yes, itâs indeed fake.
Itâs the appearance of things which deceives.
The essence is elsewhere
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Everything is empty.
Nothing is real.
Weâre all dead.
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Thatâs so Zen of you.
Very nice. 
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Iâm wondering if Iâm a prophet
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What would we be without
our delusions? Weâd be lost.
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I feel the opposite.
I mean thereâs purpose in this space.
But I have purpose in the material world too
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Delusions give meaning and
purpose to our lives.
I donât mean they are good,
though.
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