Mesaha is neither matter nor spirit, it’s one continuum
Do you think ownie is real om?
I really don’t know. Life is still a mystery. Anything Is possible
How are your voices today?
Silent. I have peace of mind. Yours?
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Not bad at all, ownie telling me something, cautioning me, warning me to be good, can’t hear him fully just hear talking
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I’m confused. In a few days I will see my pdoc and I will have my haldol shot. I’m looking forward
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I see my fingers, and a voice says “die”. Now every time I look at my fingers, I remember the bad feeling of death.
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Don’t worry freind, you have a long time to go yet take comfort in that fact.
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No , I have no interest for gfs, sex, romance . You?
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I’d like a girlfriend someday, I have zero libido from the meds though. Chemically castrated 
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Exactly the same for me
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Today I have peace and tranquility. Benzos really help
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Now, intoxicated by benzos, voices come slowly like serpents, and I feel the subconscious movements of thoughts in my brain . Voices are smooth and mellow
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Anyone else detecting the subconscious thoughts? Or realizing that they have 2 or 3 thoughts at the same time ?
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Today I had my haldol shot.
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The games we play, but there is no price to win on the deathbed. Why not enjoy your life as long as you can.
I do enjoy it. thank you
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Haldol is most torcheres medication i know. The psychiatrist said i get used to the painful sideeffects but after 10 years i still had nervepain in my legs. Thanks goodness i am clever and take zychlophonpixol now. I think they overdosed me or god knows what they injected me. I think the doctors waited till i stopped screaming and went silently into acceptance.
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