Om's madhouse 2

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 11:49am

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Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 12:42pm

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 3:01pm

Believing that you are the sole existence, and that you are all persons, is a delusion?

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 3:42pm

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fregoli_delusion fregoli delusion, one thinks thats persons are one person in disguise. I believe that all persons are Me in disguise

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 3:49pm

Should I call my pdoc? Is it time?
After some weeks with stability, I heard few voices today, I have this idea that everyone is me and I wanna die

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 4:28pm

I just asked a journalist on her personal account of Instagram “do you spy on me via TV?”

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 4:41pm

She is a fat sweet lady. She is spying on me. What if I turn the TV off?

disciple · February 3, 2019, 4:54pm

I don’t think she is spying on you but turning the tv off might be a good idea. Definitely talk to your pdoc about all this.

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 4:55pm

Now I already sent her a message

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 5:57pm

I am gonna treat myself with some white chocolate

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 6:02pm

Sardonic · February 3, 2019, 8:37pm

@Om_Sadasiva I think this topic might be hurting you more than it’s helping, as you are using it to ruminate on your delusional ideas. I have done the same thing, starting threads not to escape my delusional world, but to dig myself deeper into it. It isn’t healthy. We have to think about things other than our delusions if we’re ever meant to overcome them. We have to let go. It’s hard. Delusional ideas are still stuck in the back of my mind, I suppose because I am holding onto them. I thought I had let them go, but really I just burried them. I think your delusions are still bubbling up to the surface because you keep engaging with them. You can’t engage, not even a little, or your delusions will consume you.

Om_Sadasiva · February 3, 2019, 8:39pm

I don’t think I have delusions. Maybe some minor bizarre ideas. But I am better than ever… This is my journal of symptoms. And when i am well, it’s for favourite music pieces. Don’t worry. How are you? You sound stable

Moonwalker · February 3, 2019, 8:41pm

I feel defeated

Sardonic · February 3, 2019, 8:49pm

… Om you just said that you messaged a journalist asking her if she’s spying on you through the TV. That’s what delusional people do. No one of sound mind would end up in a situation like that. I appreciate that this is your journal of symptoms, but you are just digging yourself deeper and deeper, it seems.

edit: I feel good, stable, thanks for asking. I’m not trying to be a b itch, I’m just worried about you.

Om_Sadasiva · February 4, 2019, 7:05am

Yes, I messaged her. It was a moment of craziness. Now I am better. Thank you

Om_Sadasiva · February 4, 2019, 10:38am

Well, she read the message but never responded.
I feel ashamed today

Om_Sadasiva · February 4, 2019, 10:45am

I am so afraid of delusions. I live in another dimension, dream-like when I am under the influence of delusions. Without meds I would be crazy constantly

Om_Sadasiva · February 4, 2019, 2:19pm

I ordered a t-shirt with the album cover of Transilvanian Hunger. It will be nice.

Om_Sadasiva · February 5, 2019, 9:02am

Today I feel I wanna die.
Life seems so tiresome.
I don’t have motivation to get out of bed every morning