Om's madhouse 2


#41

Angry? Me? Are you sure it was me?


#42

What kind of noises? Real or hallucinations?


#43

Kinda like an old dial up modem and a female voice like Stephen hawking. But I think it might just be people next door


#44

I have heard computer noises from my coffee/espresso machine.


#45

Or maybe it was a dream? Lately I can’t tell what is dream and what is real


#46

I am very scared today


#47

Why? What happened?


#48

Just feel very anxious. Like something terrible is about to happen


#50

Yes, it happens to me also.


#51

“you should exterminate the powerless”


#52

I worry people are afraid to help me. I worry my nurses think I am a physical risk. I have never hurt anyone


#53

If someone is paranoid he may hurt others or himself. Did you inform your pdoc?


#54

I have zero thoughts of harming anyone but I am big guy, with a shaved head and wild beard. I also look a bit desperate a lot of the time. I worry I have been profiled based upon my appearence


#55

My appearance is not good. I have wild beard and I don’t care about my outfit. I wish people wouldn’t judge by appearance. Did you talk with your pdoc?


#56

No spoke to my nurse instead. She says phone the team anytime. I worry I make a nuisance for the team


#57

“you have to die a quick death”


#58

It’s not nuisance. It’s their job.
I am reluctant too to call my pdoc lest i cause nuisance


#59

I have difficulty to swallow. It may be tardive dyskinisia


#60

I am so afraid of this illness, meds, side effects.


#61

I am afraid of meds and afraid to go off meds at the same time. I have side effects, and there’s no way to determine which med causes a specific side effect