Om's madhouse 2


#283

Thats a good idea. Sounds like lowering the dose is causing some more delusions


#284

We had to try to see if my hypertension and tachycardia is linked to antipsychotics


#285

I just called my pdoc. He increased my antidepressant and antipsychotic.


#286

Now I have energy, I dance, and shout and say gibberish and make grimaces and hand gestures. Mr Thoughtless takes over. Is it hypomania? I have rapid thoughts. Or grandeur?


#287

@Om_Sadasiva it is good you are talking to your pdoc, you seem to be a bit more delusional than you were before, but you still have us to talk to which I believe is a good thing.

What do you plan on doing tomorrow? I get my kids for the weekend and we will have fun times. Have you been listening to music? How are the voices today?


#288

I had few voices in the morning. Then I was better. I got tired of listening to music all day long. Hope you have fun with the kids


#290

Yesterday, with the first signs of Truman show, I called pdoc. And told him I feel like everyone is fake and an actor. He increased haldol a bit.


#291

Man i really feel for you.

One day its increased, the next day its decreased, next day its increased, next day its decreased.


#292

Yeah, decreased because of hypertension and tachycardia and increased because of voices and delusions. It’s so tiresome


#293

Or is it easier for people who lose their sense of self to become schizophrenic?? Because that’s what I believe happened to me.


#294

Yeah maybe. I don’t know


#295

Now TV said about a character of fiction who thought of people as toys, soulless. This a direct message for me


#296

Now on the TV: these voices are ourselves, not another entities. Is it God’s answer to the assumption that voices are real beings?


#297

I don’t know why I think TV sends messages from God


#298

I don’t know if it’s a delusion but I believe I was every person in history. Both Pilate and Jesus, for example


#299

I’ve heard a philosophy of this. It was maybe a story on a forum from years ago. “You reincarnate into every person in history, then when their lives are all completed you’ve experienced them all, you become a god!” But it would suck to be your own mother’s lover . Lol I guess it wouldn’t matter you are equally every identity ever.

Ftr I don’t believe this.


#300

It sounds funny


#301

Hey om. How are you?


#302

Hey buddy, what’s up? It’s a rainy day here and my mood is bad. You?


#303

I’m alright. Learning a lot about philosophy and life.