We lowered haldol from 60mg to 40mg and I hear loud and constant voices again
Voices stopped. Thank God
I hear Lucifer telling me that he is the most beautiful angel, even though he is fallen. He says that I should worship him. And voices say that he is a Buddha that wanted to be above all Gods and humans
I walked today. It is a sunny day. I wrote it down in my journal, as therapist said
Itâs really good that you walked. For a long time i was walking on the treadmill every day. Since this depression hit, i have had no motivation to walk or do much of anything. I have also thought about keeping a journal. I worry about someone finding it and reading it, though. That is what has kept me from doing it. Do you find that journaling helps you?
This journal is about my daily accomplishments.
I have another journal where i write the symptoms. It doesnât help much
When I touch my left part of the head, itâs super sensitive and my brain hurts. Could it be the mustache of Captain Beefheart? Intertwined with my brain neurons
âkill them all and then point the gun at youâ
Itâs easier for a schizophrenic to lose ego boundaries, and self. Thus itâs a shortcut to enlightenment
Watsap OM ? how u been
Hey Walla! I am fine. No complaint. You? Are you still off meds?
Yea im doing fine off them hey.
Im having symptoms but im managing to get through them with a new psychologist ive found.
I used to think therapists were a joke lol, how wrong i was !!
You still on such high doses?
Yes, but I lowered haldol to 40 from 60, and zyprexa to 60 from 80 due to tachycardia and hypertension. A few days ago i met my therapist and itâs going well
I feel extremely confused and a bit dizzy. Like Iâm losing touch with reality
I say âanimalsâ and TV says animals.
I say âmissionâ in my life to save beings, and TV says mission. Also TV mentions Alogistos (Mr Thoughtless), an hebephrenic voice I have which makes me do silly gestures and makes me shout stupid things, neologisms, and do grimaces.
And many more coincidences. Almost every day TV talks about me or directly to me.
Is there a conspiracy with me as the only victim? Is it glitches in the matrix?
Is it Truman Show giving hints to me, the only protagonist and making fun of me?
Sounds like coincidences are happening again to you @Om_Sadasiva . You seem to be a little paranoid, donât worry you arenât stuck in the matrix and you arenât on the truman show.
I am doing ok, almost done with work then driving and then I will exercise for a bit.
Then I am buying a birthstone necklace for my daughter, it is for her birthday, she will be 5!
Oh happy birthday to her!!!
âI am Radha, you are Krsnaâ
âI am your mother and your fatherâ
âI am like a brilliant sea urchin, with spikes of lightâ
âI am the energy of Universeâ