after 2 years and 3 months into psychiatry and 5 times in and out hospital, I officially gave up in life and won’t even try to get a job I might aswell live on bread everyday with my saved money.
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I feel a bit like that after 9 years but I just try to tell myself tomorrow’s a new day to figure things out. Living off savings myself at the moment
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invega sustenna is such a shitty drug it caused insomnia for 3 months I don’t even know how this drug got fda approved.
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I say the same thing about risperidone. How the **** did this ever get approved? I hope things get better for you
2 years is not a long time. My parents left me psychotic for a whole year and it really still bothers me that so much time was wasted. I also gained weight and suffered unnecessarily due to their lack of guidance on anything. But if you’re stable now, I recommend not dwelling so much on what you’ve lost and how bad your brain is. Be kind to yourself and let yourself go at your own pace. You sound pretty good in writing, better than me. Be stable, take meds, and start setting goals for yourself.
I got ill in 1980 at age 19. Spent almost the entire 80’s in hospitals and living in group homes and other mental health housing. I felt suicidal and felt like giving up hundreds of times.
I was severely ill like anybody else. I suffered from psychosis, depression and delusions.
But I kept going with the help and support of my family and therapists and psychiatrists.
If I had given up I would not have experienced the following:
I’ve been working almost steadily since 1983.
I am close to getting my degree, just 5 more classes. For my own satisfaction.
I’ve flown across the country a few times and a few other places in the U.S.
I went water-skiing for the first time in my thirties.
I’ve been camping a few times.
I’ve been to a million restaurants and lots of movies.
I was best man at my dads wedding. That meant standing up there in front of twenty people as my dad and my step-mom exchanged vows and holding my dads wedding ring and later giving the toast in the crowded hotel room where the reception was held.
I’ve been to lots of parties, clubs, bars.
Went jet-skiing for the first time in my thirties.
Took long train rides to visit my dad.
I got addicted to crack which is not a positive, good thing and it almost killed me, but I got to see the seamier side of life for a few years and later when I got clean in 1990 in AA, I sat through at least a 1000 meetings up until several years ago.
I lived independently for 20 years, and six of those years I lived alone.
I’ve dated a little, had a couple of short-term relationships with women who were way out of my league.
I’ve had several cars, about 10 I guess.
Had lots of money at one point but I’ve also been poor a lot.
I’ve been at my janitor job for 5 years now, I get along with most people there. I have to admit though, it’s an easy job.
Anyways, I’m not listing these things to brag I’m just showing what is possible even with this disease. And I’m showing why you should not give up.
When I first got sick I was just like any other person suffering from schizophrenia. I saw no future. I saw no end to my suffering the first two or three years. I was just this rather naïve twenty year old who one day was living with his parents in an apartment partying with friends, working and driving around in my old 1966 Chevy and had never even seen a therapist and then the next day my parents were driving me a 100 miles away to my first psyche ward.
Then came hospitals and group homes. I was very ill throughout the 80’s but I improved in the nineties and eventually when I was in my mid-forties some of my symptoms started to noticeably subside. It was amazing. And as I got older, I started to get better in increments until now at age 58 I have tne peace of mind often that eluded me in my younger days with schizophrenia. My mind stops racing often and slows down.
So I did all this because of certain things. First and foremost I take my meds religiously. I’ve been going to therapists and psychiatrists steadily. I co-operate in my own treatment and help myself. Quitting drugs was a huge step in my recovery. If you’re doing drugs or drinking I would recommend taking a hard look at your drug or alcohol use and try to objectively see how it is affecting you and your life. It may be causing more problems than you realize.
But yeah, I’ve done a ton of fun stuff but I also had to do a lot of things that I hated. I didn’t always enjoy going to vocational programs or to day treatment or group therapy. I often hated it, but those are the things that eventually aided in my recovery.
Don’t fight the people trying to help you. Being a rebel or a troublemaker is all well and good but it will also run you afoul and put you at odds with the very people trying to help you.
The first years are the roughest for everybody But it gets better. Tell your psychiatrist your feelings about giving up. He will offer support and try to help you. It might seem like people in the world don’t care about you but there are some really nice people out there. I hope you got something from all this. I hope you get the help you need and just don’t give up. Good luck.
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You have a great things to say man.
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İ gave up in life also. İ just can not handle anymore… 
There is no point in giving up. You have plenty of time to rest when you die. Try and do something now whilst you can. Life is what you make it, and if you tap out now you’ll regret it.
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I didnt have concentration to read all posts, so i might say things others did too. I struggled for years, with more hospitalisations than you, and even the nurses shocked by the severity of my psychoses. Even my doctors gave up on me - they said i would die soon. I wanted euthanasia.
Now life is still tougher than average, but worth it. Besides trouble, i have happy moods and good people and fun activities and laughs and a job (though i might quit that). I do not want to die. I wasnt hospitalised for years.
Dont give up hope! Life can change, one step at the time. Hang on!
Is there a goal you could cling to? A person you like, an activity, a wish?
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