it’s perfect man… thanks dude…
Boys and girls get the ■■■■ back in your seats and shut the hell up… from here on out I will be the bus driver from hell :devil: bhua ha…
■■■■ aint real… it’s just not… fear… survival… makes us believe our sense… but the hazard is the fragments of our mind… the shells that it breaks into… the auditory interweave as it were that mixes in with the real experience…
strive for the moments where you truly forget the psychosis… learn to find them easily… it’s your best chance at seeing how to emerge from the SZ cocoon… you got let go and fight at the same time… they’ll poke and prod to keep connected… and by they I just mean the figments… they’ll try to catch your interest… because once they lose you… you have chance to keep it that way… that’s when you have to know how to forget the illness and the psychotic scenario and or self view that keeps you locked into discourse with the voices (on your end). They… these voices… they will never have anything to offer you aside from a quippy laugh…
good luck folks… I’ll be around… keep on fighting… it’s time we start winning…
I think there is a mixing of the subconscious, reality and dreaming at the same time. I don’t know why it turns so awful most of the time. Maybe it’s the fear and anxiety that makes the content so
if this makes man… its a view i’ve been entertaining recently…
the conscious state in all people is a dream… just with real information from the sense plugged in… that dream is more about environmental exploration and not procedural subconscious generation…
the waking dream in the height of psychosis is the result of the conscious mind operating very similarly to the dreaming mind… when psychosis is chemically stabilized… it begins to move farther from the dreaming mode to pure perception/thinking mode…
but it is a dream… and it’s not as volatile as an actual dream because it’s supposed to be the main processing center for exploring actual external environments… which need a lot of consistency…
so this just a perspective… I can’t speak for how true it holds on a chemical level…
to change the waking dream… takes a long time to understand… it’s not like lucid dreaming at all.
No-no I mean subconscious as opposed to the conscious mind. The things you actually see, the are the conscious mind. Dreaming is a product of the subconscious mind, from what I understand, that is literally the difference. Conscious is waking, subconscious is dreaming. The subconscious mind is where our memories are stored, and our memories are where dreams come from. This model could explain intrusive thoughts, it is very difficult to control our dreams, no? The subconscious invades and mixes with the conscious in thought and senses, and we confuse the memories we experience for reality, because your conscious mind is telling you you are awake, and confirming the dreams
right but is the perceiver not the same? it’s the inputs to the what is percieved…
the watcher stays the same… the inputs are either subconsciously generated or fed from real inputs via the senses…
Glad i don’t hear voices.
lucky you… I’m sorry you’re sz
it gets easier man…
I figured it out… I still have voices… but I think I know now… I can almost see it all at once… found a comfortable niche in here for my mind to occupy… I just have to remember it… no looking “out there” and no letting them talk in…no arguing… let them huva huva huva…
If you can do that then you’ve made real progress. That’s great! I don’t know what it’s like to hear voices but it sounds really challenging.
it’s not fun man… not at all… they fill every down moment with evil ■■■■■■■■… suggest controversies like ■■■■■■■ pretty much everything and murdering christians…
■■■■ I hate it… it’s either get over every psychological issue that is out there… or live in an internal hell for the rest of your life…
the paint still coats the walls… but I’m hoping the wind will blow it clear soon
they leave you curled in a mental ball… afraid to feel… afraid to trust the self… the longer you stay there… the longer they will rule… stretch out and process the pain of it… forgive the universe and let it go… it might hurt a lot for a while… eventually though… the pain passes in a moment and you lose the concern and focus on the illness… then the power finally starts shifting back…
Sounds like hell. Hope you win over them eventually.
I have problems with thinking and writing now, sorry.
Don’t let them win.
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Thanks for the support man… We’ll figure it out…
It should all be mapped by this point… The underlying SZA mood and hallucination feeding each other crap… Thats the real illness. The symptoms are limbs of the kracken that are trying to sink the ship… Cut them back… Peel them away… So many tentacles… And then their is still the beast chewing holes on the starboard side.
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