Hi, I’m new here. I’ve been getting harassed for my body odor. Though no one besides my family has told me out right that I stink.I hear comments about it (without saying my name or by using someone else’s name. Anyone know what it’s called? Passive aggression?) My mom says mean things about it and Tells me I am like I am seriously (not joking)crazy sometimes and contradicts herself by telling me I don’t smell in a nice tone. (The old do I look fat in these jeans situation)Wtf? People say I don’t smell when I ask them genuinely but they talk ■■■■ at a distance or talk about showers and deodorant when I am around. Which confuses me because I use these regularly. I don’t smell anyone with wicked Bo in any social situation that I have so I assume they are indirectly talking about me. I get told to take a shower before going to school (which I do every time I go out anyway)
I think I am being harassed in an organized way, people getting together and calling my name and walking away because they think I am psychotic and making fun of me. I actually took a tape recorder with me to school and got random stuff like a girl passing by me saying man rack since I am kind of overweight, I got the teacher saying stuff about me too. It is hard to prove because they say things indirectly. I get the feeling that someone is doesn’t like me for talking too much ■■■■ is warning people about me and actively trying to undermine me. I’ve heard my relatives say stuff like whispering I stink or make indirect comments about me with key terms letting me know they are talking about me. Is this organized harassment or is it a way to treat psychotic patients /schizophrenia patients by having them face their “delusions” or is this a way to harass a perceived bully? I’ve been hearing voices in my head imagining someone judging my actions since I was in middle school and thought it was normal as “normal” people on tv and people I ask do this kind of stuff all the time and just brush it off like I do.
How do I prove that I am being harassed and what can I do? Can I have a lawyer subpoena people’s text messages without them knowing,If I think I am being harassed in a school setting where the teacher is “in on it”
It feels like people use the label crazy to discredit people so that they can $hit talk about people with little to no consequence.
I feel like I say stuff that doesn’t make sense but can’t help it. Like I recall a bad memory and after I get the feeling I say stuff like ■■■■ or bitch ■■■■■ or jerk or loser out loud in class without having control of it.
Do people do this? They gossip about a perceived bully to people in their environment to undermine the person’s interactions to make them crazier than they are perceived.
I have been playing trumpet for 16 years and feel relieved that there are talented studio musicians (trumpet) like Bud Brisbois who was so talented but lost just battle to bipolar disorder when he committed suicide at a young age. I felt like I was not the only one on this earth suffering, if I truly am mentally ill.
I know this was a long read but I have been bottling this up for years and have suffered 5 years if being jobless, lonely and a shut in from age 20-25. I lost some of the best years of my life to malicious indirect talk that I can only attribute to something I said or did.
Thanks in advance for the comments!