I have a major theme to my delusions. (I wouldn’t even have admitted it’s all delusional until my Haldol got significantly increased recently and then I had a bit of a crash landing.)
But, I’m noticing the pros and cons to those beliefs (for reference I had life-long grandiose ones):
Pros: gave me a sense of purpose
Cons: made me suicidal very frequently
Aside from almost killing me several times and landing me in the hospital so many times I’ve lost count, the sense of purpose those beliefs gave me can’t really be replicated and I am left with a low-grade depression about life. I can make everyday choices and it really doesn’t matter. Is that what normal life is?