This is the third week, about, of my job. The first few days I was clueless and made several mistakes. Now I am doing better. I have been doing duties inside bc delivery doesn’t start for another two weeks. I am looking forward to delivery quite a lot.
My body isn’t doing well. My back and feet are murdered each shift. I will start doing stretches.
I’ve ‘gotten to know’ a few of my coworkers but 99.99% of me thinks that they don’t like me and on several instances they’ve seeemed to almost harass me but I can’t be sure. I’ve made a few jokes to coworkers and customers and they’ve laughed.
Right now I’m underachieving at community college and most of my days are spent working, going to class, or relaxing/recharging.
I’m getting my late uncles '12 Suburu Outback… I am very grateful for this.
Mainly it’s just…well…
Feelings of depersonalization
High anxiety
Frequent suicidal thoughts
Numbness
Etc.
I don’t have any choice but to trudge on.
Suicide doesn’t make sense,… the law of cause and effect tell us that cheating your way out of suffering doesn’t lead you anywhere. If you kill your body that doesn’t magically make your mind go away, in my opinion.
Anyways
Nomad
