If I had been asked that as a child I might have opened up.
I think a therapist asked me that once. Of course I said no so I wouldn’t get hospitalized, even though at this time I wanted to say yes. The polite thing to ask is if you are suicidal. If you are suicidal do you want to die? At times when I was SI/SU I was wishy-washy I just felt so hopeless that there was no alternative.
A child psychologist might have been good for you. …all that play therapy. When I went through my second childhood I thought I wanted to do that - the toys spoke to me.