I have little nicotine addiction, do you have this?
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Yes I do. It is awful.
I never thought I would be a smoker but I became one during a confusing time of self apathy and peer example.
I started craving smokes when I was 12 and my foster parents chain smoked around me.
I hated it. I decided I would not ever smoke.
I tried smoking later though as an act of past self rebellion around 19 and it made me sick. I craved it, but I would quit and start with large month long gaps of time. I went years without doing it again.
Somehow I started a again a couple years ago at 26 because I would get to have breaks from work and social reasons. All my friends were smokers and I couldn’t resist anymore the craving.
It is very easy to fall through the cracks and do things you never wanted to do. Breaking promises to yourself. Anybody can do it.
Now I am very addicted and it has been a bad financial problem feeding my addiction. I have done foolish things to pay for cigs. smoking rather than eating, using credit for it, etc. I really like the feeling I get of thinking clearly and being relaxed. But the health problems I avoid thinking about and the money problem is like somehow put away in my mind. It is dishonest and abusive to myself to smoke. I somehow enjoy it. Or there is pleasure from it. When I make attempts to quit, I go so insane and mad that I am afraid to keep trying to quit. I know the trick is to realize that choosing not to smoke every time you crave is the only way. But the mind feels extreme deprivation and frustration when it knows you intend to quit. You have to trick the mind into thinking it is an option to smoke or not. Like have a pack on you and just keep choosing not to smoke until you start to feel better. I just have not been brave enough yet to get past the worst time. It is a nasty addiction.
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When I was in America I did not use any nicotine at all, but when I arrived at Finland this nicotine addiction came after seven years, nicotine is a part of the Finnish culture, yes, nicotine addiction is awful, but it also helps me to concentrate better, when I came to Finland I entered into the community where everybody had this nicotine addiction.
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My cigarette addiction has reached an epic precipice.
And i don’t care.
Sometimes when i have chest pains i smile because i know ill be dead soon, i cross my fingers hoping thats it and think “c’mon, just stop beating, free me from this.”
Ill never quit, i don’t want to quit, and i have no reason to at all.
Finland has two main addictions: nicotine and alcohol. I have avoided this alcohol addiction because it is not good for me, but just recently I had a conversation with one person how all kinds of people go to Tallin, Estonia to buy alcohol and they bring it back in large quantities. So there are nicotinists,alcoholists and nicoalcoholists.
I have the worst of both worlds…addiction to nicotine and the psychological addiction to smoking tobacco. I have been a regular smoker since I was 14. I can sympathize with the cost of this addiction, though I generally smoke a discount brand and buy by the carton the cost is more than double the $2.50 a pack it was for brand name cigarettes here when I started smoking. I know…when I say that someone always goes “What! Try 50 cents a pack when I started!”
(actually it’s not ‘more than double’ it isn’t even double that price I don’t know why I said that…it’s early…it’s actually still rather cheap here if you buy discount brand)
But it sucks, it really does. It’s awful for you and a real B to quit…
I quit I quit its day 5 I cant beleb it I am getting myself a huge gold star to stick in my living room yey yey yey.
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I still have a little nicotine addiction. I try not to smoke tobacco, but chew nicotine gum, but I need to stop this habit.
ive stopped smoking for goodnow you have to stop to relaise how horrible and gross it is.
been smoking rollups around 9 years now but did stop for a year, at one point i was chain smoking like there was no tomorrow.
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