Today I had my fifth therapy session… We’re getting closer and closer to the realization of ADHD, specifically the mixed type.
We talk a lot about family… My therapist is pleading with me to stay as far away as possible from my biological family, especially my brother. I shared that he has threatened me numerous times and is becoming increasingly aggressive. Once, in front of my boyfriend’s home, he showed up drunk with a knife—I just hid and pretended I wasn’t home. Even though it only happened once, my anxiety skyrocketed that time, even though I tried to calm myself by thinking he wouldn’t actually do anything to me…
In my therapist’s opinion, this is very serious. He is unstable, and I should not get involved in my family’s life—if they don’t want to hospitalize him, I still must stay out of it and protect myself.
“You are a gifted person who grew up in a chaotic environment,” she said at the end of the session.
In her opinion, the only way to have contact with my family is without my brother and in a public place. She is begging me not to set foot in that house. And if… if one day my boyfriend and I break up — still, I should not go back there but find another place to live.
I agree with your therapist too. The next time your brother comes to your boyfriend’s house or anywhere looking for you with a knife, call the police immediately. This is not an over reaction.
Then you have to tell them everything that’s happened with him, including that he’s looked for you with a knife before.
Thank you all for your care… @Wave@HollyHobbie@POET Sometimes it’s just hard to believe how quickly my family is spiraling downward—especially my brother. Sometimes I’m afraid he might hurt our parents, but there’s not much I can do if they don’t want change themselves.
It’s strange, but I’m so used to chaos in my life that his showing up with a knife didn’t even seem that serious to me… though when I think about it more deeply, it was a real and immediate danger. My therapist is asking me not to walk alone, and if I have to, to stay alert and check with my mom whether my brother is out and about drunk or on drugs.