No, I did not get this from the television. Did something happen to me in college back in 2010-2011? Personally, I recall coming back alive in a time loop or causal loop or something to the best of my knowledge with little to no memory and severe dissociation. Memory comes back slowly along with paranoia and psychiatric “delusions”. I graduated high school back in 2007 and went to community college in 2007. Then I transferred to a university in 2010 and dropped out in 2011. I got sick in 2011.
I have a lot of fictional identities from TV shows which are obviously not real but I feel they are loosely based on my past lives in parallel universes. I think it’s the illuminati but I’m not sure. I’ve seen aliens and craft too.
I cannot work or function and my hygiene is very poor. The APs (only Vraylar supposedly) help as well as ADs and mood stabilizers (only Cymbalta and Lamictal). I’m a chronic smoker and drink energy drinks heavily.
Something may have happened in my childhood but I don’t know if it was in this universe or a different one.
I keep on reincarnating to a specific year. In a past life, they told me 2013 to say the least. These people were not ordinary people to say the least. I can see and experience my soul (consciousness) reincarnate while it is happening and this has been going on for near eternity. No one believes me except a few aliens or illuminati type people in my other lives. Trying to get help here.
Any therapies you guys can recommend or new medications? I read art (creative) therapy helps.
I have made significant strides to help myself. I don’t think I have DID or MPD. I don’t hear voices but I might have had my personality or mind split from severe trauma like from MK-Ultra or something – not sure if it was in this life or my past lives, but it did happen.
Is there a way to stop reincarnating and just move on from this crap or mess? I’m tired of re-living my life as a disabled, paranoid schizophrenic. I hate the mental hospital a lot. It’s a mess and a freaking joke and insult.
My biggest dream and hope is to go back to my childhood and live a completely different, better life. One where I never go to the school I transferred to. Maybe live in a different neighborhood or family or state.
My biggest regret is not being able to move on and being stuck in the current year (2013) and then reliving my life from that point. If I do have MPD, which I highly doubt, I’ve been living in REAL parallel worlds before 2013 and then traveling back here via mind time travel, which blows.
I’m being honest here and I’m not delusional. I guess I was in the real Illuminati in a past life and I’m hoping to escape from this ■■■■■■■ hell and curse of a life. They told me I’m a vampire, which I’ve explained a thousand times before is someone who can reincarnate and remember their previous life more than the average person. That’s all it means.