I am waiting on a PhD decision from a big wig school that I don’t want to name.
I’m expecting a decision within the next 25 days. I’m nervous. I keep thinking I won’t get in, who am I to get in, I can’t get in, I got rejected from a lower tier doctoral program already, what chance do i have…
but then again, maybe my extra-curricular work will boost me up! It’s hard to be positive. This would mean so much though! It’s my dream since I started college to earn my PhD in a field of my passion.
What do I do if they reject me? It would be tempting to quit my PhD dreams rather than ask my profs for yet ANOTHER letter of recommendation…
then again, I didn’t get this far by letting some rejection get to me to the point of permanently quitting…
scared. wild exhilarating fear the unknown helpless vulnerability in the hands of all powerful admissions committee,eek!
On the bright side, it only cost the transcript fees, as the big wig school gave me an admissions fee waiver (to apply alone cost over 100 dollars!), so I didn’t pay the huge application fee. I just applied as a waiver admit and submitted my grades and statement of achievements to be get an income-based waiver (in case you’re curious, meeting the low income requirements was just one item out of a list of other requirements to be considered for the application waiver, other things included academic history, extra-curricular activities, etc…). Hopefully, the fact that I got such a fee waiver at all is maybe hopefully means that someone there thinks I have enough of a shot to get in that they would be willing to grant me an application fee waiver…then again, maybe not, ouch!
Nervous. NErvous. Nervous. Hopeful…now cynical…now hopeful again. eh gads man i cannot take this level of anticipation and dread!
