My meds protect me well from depression. But for some time now, I have been spending too much time on the internet.
I find it difficult to go outside and I dread making music because the result terrifies me.
I think my creations suck to be honest. Why am I so critical of myself?
Sometimes a simple “impulse” is impossible for me.
I can’t tell if it’s a mood issue or a dopamine issue…
it might be a dopamine issue. the reason I say this is because I recently read that stimulants increase th levels of dopamine and the effect of increasing dopamine is that you see more of the reward from an action than the negatives or costs
Basically, without dopamine, it’s hard to see or be creative/problem solve
As advice I would say, do cognitive behavioural therapy on yourself. Try to make your thoughts streamlined to your goals and then what the goals will give you. Always remember the feeling of satisfaction you have when something goes right, then your mind will remember more of what it is trying to attain!