Hello, I need some help, please.
I have not been diagnosed with a schizo disorder, but with ptsd and depression, but have been having increasing dissociation events as well, where I say and do things out of character, and that I don’t remember.
Here is the symptom I need help with… I recently was having an argument with my wife and I had this sudden onset thought of me cutting her head off with a knife. While this is disturbing enough, what is really upsetting me is the fact that I have a very poor visual imagination… If you asked me to describe my house I could give you all the important details, but will not ‘see’ it in my mind like many people seem to. This vision, I saw VERY clearly. In addition, I ‘felt’ the weight of the knife in my hand and the resistance in cutting…
I have never experienced anything like this. I don’t even know if it would be clarified as a visual hallucination, a tactile one, or some term I don’t even know.
Any hello you can offer would be appreciated. I am really freaking out right now.