Honestly, worse outcome. Going back in time and reliving my illness is not fun or enjoyable. Starting all over again sucks. Been there done that.
Boredom. Suffering. Pain. Sorrow. Loneliness,etc.
Can’t speak for the rest of you or humanity or us, but I have this intense feeling and sensation and belief I keep going back in time like space is curved in a CTC or godel universe…
Something makes me feel I am stuck in the year 2011 and I keep waking up in that year like I get rebooted or something back in time with no memory like a total reset of the server/system/body/mind/etc type thing.
Can’t explain it better. It’s basically a causal loop but feels like a time loop. Logical explanation would be a mental illness or bad drug trip 10 years ago making me feel like I keep reliving life ad infinitum and ad nauseum like eternal recurrence like Nietzsche pondered years ago. Except things do change I guess depending on chance or where the reptilians/computer simulators send me. It’s like reincarnation except I’m aware and remember previous iterations/loops in the same body/same life over and over again. Einstein would call that insanity.