He asked me if I was already seeing a counsellor or therapist. I said yes and told him who. It’s a small town I suppose they all know each other. And asked what we talk about. When I told him he said I waste that time I could be talking about my symptoms not simple things. I understand what he’s saying because I do spend the entire hour twice (biweekly) talking about day to day life as if I were a regular person going to therapy not a disagnosed Mental person. I never talk about symptoms or details of my paranoia or delusions.
He asked me to get into details with him also and I refused because I’m too scared. Now I feel like I am wasting all of my resources and want to be more open but how. How do you all talk details with doctors. I want to do it freely but I think one thing is reality and they won’t and I’m nervous. I also tried to talk once about my voices and they became hostile for a while. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.
Best to blurt it all out and go from there, don’t worry what others will think, they have heard much worse than what you have to say. It will give them the information to move forward with.
i often feel like im wasting time in therapy sessions. though honestly, i dont know what they can do for me other than try to explain some coping mechanisms, but when im nervous or paranoid in the moment i obviously dont think to use them so it feels somewhat like a waste
I feel similar to this. Like I can tell them everything and then they will know. But how exactly does that benefit myself? Will everything vanish once I talk about how they’re not real. My brain created them. I know this already. But I think it’s all real and it won’t help. I’m writing out everything I can think to say about my voices. I can’t even explain them. Thestripedshirtboy doesn’t even have a voice. I sense his words. How does that make sense to someone who doesn’t experience this? It’s all so exhausting. Just writing it I become very tired.
I can ramble a lot. But do you ever find doctors interrupt you. And then I lose my train of thought. Sometimes I want to yell at one of them in particular. But I know the issue is probably me.
I’ve come to realize that therapist are more crazy than their patients, which prompted me to stop going to my therapist. All I need is my psychiatrist, a few questions about my research with supplements, some questions about my meds and I’m good.
I find therapists talk too much about their lives, and us clients only have a small period of time to ask the questions we prepared. In an hour session, they talk about 45 mins about themselves while we only get sw only get 15 mins for us to talk.
Maybe it would help. Maybe your psychiatrist has a valid point. Having said that I’m a hypocrite as one of the main reasons I don’t do therapy is that I too have accepted some of my unusual beliefs as real.
I always forget. I will say things the next time like I remember leaving feeling this way but not why or what was talked about. He asked why I stopped seeing his colleague I said I had bad vibes but really I just didn’t think we got along but don’t remember why. It doesn’t help that wen I leave I feel very drained and tired. So tired I fall asleep on the way home. Another reason why I don’t drive.
I think I’ve come to accept a lot of them. I want to talk about something and someone in particular though as I think I’m in a psychotic episode or it’s real and I don’t know. I have no one to talk with about it. I tried something small with my husband to see how he would react. I told him that when I drink coffee a voice says it’s poison. I figured it is relatively common thing to hear for sz and bipolar people so it wouldn’t be too off the wall and freak him out but he said nothing which lets me know he won’t be able to handle it. I think he hates that there’s nothing he can do for me. If he can’t fix it he ignores it. It’s not his fault but I am very certain I’ll be getting an all inclusive stay at hotel mental ward very soon with this new person in my life now. I keep sensing that he’s coming. I started doing strange things like cleaning and preparing our home for him and I saved him a piece of cake one night at dinner. The kids think we have a ■■■■■■■ guest coming to stay with us and now I’m hearing him say he’s here almost and I need to search for him. I was outside walking through mud and snow in socks yesterday looking for where the voice was coming from and my husband came home early I was so embarrassed I just walked inside and we pretend I wasn’t being weird. I stayed up all night thinking of excuses for my action I wanted to blurt out I was looking for for our cat but it’s too late now and will be obvious. Also this is the most open I’ve been ever so I hope this isn’t a ramble and thank you for letting me get this off my chest.
It is still early for scientists to tell us the root of the problem today. I think it is still unknown to mankind.
Let me tell you a true experience, one day when I was sleeping on a chair facing the balcony, I woke up and open my eyes unintentionally only to find out a monkey was staring at me on the balcony.
I have no explanation for that but I believe the brain does “some magic work” which is still a mystery until today.
I know a girl of 30 years. Who suffers from voices that give her orders. She finally decided not to have any contact with the people of the mental health care. Because she does not think it necessary.
She has been admitted several times in the past because of psychotic dysregulation and suicide attempts. In the end she has stopped all medication and lives a very limited life.
She never told the GGZ what those voices said. Because she was ashamed of it and because she knew that it was created by her own head.
She eventually managed to obtain her driving license. Study and work is not there for her. She makes a two-hour walk with her dog every day. Because depression is always lurking as she says.
I am for medicines the moment you can take more and become more active because you have less problems with certain symptoms.
Whatever you do. Whether you keep your symptoms to yourself or share them. Both have their advantages and disadvantages. good luck
For therapists, this is the first step. The goal is to help you to be able to help yourself and become autonomous. So the writing things down helps know where you are at. And then you can acknowledge it or pat yourself on the back or w/e suits your fancy. As long as you are working toward your goal, you should be ok.
My advice is start small. Maybe start with negative symptoms or how the meds are working or just small experiences from the past related to your conditions.
It might help you build up to talk about bigger things
@StripedShirtBoy I’d be careful around therapists. Letting someone mess with your head is really dangerous and shouldn’t be done lightly, and not until you’re ready.