It was a few months after my 1st admission in 1975. It was to help out going round hospital wards with the hospital library service. It was not a good experience . I felt very anxious. I really struggled with the human interaction part of it . I lasted a week or so.
I am tempted to say my greatest anxiety/fear and barrier re having a job has always been due to my communication difficulties and severe social anxiety . Closely followed by difficulty showing initiative in non leisure situations. I’d call it ‘What should I do now?’ syndrome .