I spoke about this person once on this site, we were on a three year relationship, really crazy about each other.
We were really young and stupid, did a lot of stupid things to each other and then I broke it off.
To forget him I started a relationship with a guy that abused me, that lead me to almost commit suicide.
I was really unstable at the time, so I didn’t make the smartest choices then.
When I was floridly psychotic I tried going back but he was on a relationship and seriously, why would he want to start a relationship with someone that’s completely off her mind refusing help and medication. He was really sweet about it, and we remained friends for a while.
When it was time for me to go to the hospital him and his family, to which I’m still friends with, spoke to my mom about being worried about me. I went to his house talking gibberish and they were really worried, his sister later told me some of the things I said I don’t even remember it.
So anyway, a few weeks ago he came to talk to me asking me to go to his house one of these days and I still haven’t had the courage to go.
I’m afraid of falling in love again and I’m not ready to start anything. And really, he probably just wants to be friends anyway, maybe that’s what I’m scared about.
Everytime I go near him, I get all 14 year old girl, it’s ridiculous.
I should go see him though, and be friends with him, it’s not a person I would like to cut out of my life.
Just venting here, thanks for reading!