I have been getting really poor sleep. Feels now like the time has come where I need to sort it out
What happens to me is I fall asleep ok, because I am exhausted.
Then I will awake from whatever twisted memory of this that or the other, or who, and be re-traumatised every night of my existence during this time period.
This means I cannot go back to sleep, as frankly, I am not having a good time of it at all
I will be awake after just a few hours of sleep. My anger goes through the roof about how I dealt with previous misgivings, and my mind seems intent on torturing me over these things.
It feels like these people have literally opened a back door into my psyche, and are pulling at strings until one snaps.
This is deeply unsettling to me, and I cannot put up with this
The Psychiatrist blamed the Sertraline, but all he knew was that I wasn’t sleeping. The above he is not aware of.
I cannot communicate with my case manager. He listens to 10% of what I say, and forgets or ignores 90% of it. I do not trust him any more.
Just got off the phone to the crisis line, and I told them I had been playing with knifes.
They put me through to a Nurse, and she just talked ■■■■ and deflected the issues at hand. I do not think it was a useful conversation.
Not very impressed. She says she will email my treatment team. I told her they’re all away on holiday for three weeks.
Then she said duty worker on Tuesday. How the ■■■■ can I wait that long? This has been going on for pretty much 2021, and I am getting sick of it.
These people must think I am just a dripping tap with a bucket that just needs emptying once in a while on a phone call. It’s pathetic.