And it switches between different frequencies. On one frequency I hear very kind and loving entities that want to help me. On another frequency I hear terrible evil things that want to consume me/destroy me.
A radio can’t be on two frequencies at the same time. It can be sort of close to another one so you faintly pick up what’s happening on the other station but you’ll never hear it as clearly as the station that’s on the actual frequency you’re set to. So generally if I am on the good frequency I can’t really hear the bad guys, if I’m on the bad frequency I can’t really hear the good guys.
I have maybe some control over this radio. Not very much control, but I can feel drawn towards a certain frequency and that may make it more likely to switch to that. Sometimes not but sometimes yes. So you’d think I’d spend all my time trying to stay on the good frequency so I can hear the loving entities. But I don’t…today I felt drawn again to that darkness, to that bad entity. I haven’t heard from Plague in quite a while now, probably like 2 months? But today I picked up his voice just faintly and he said that he was my teacher the same as the good ones were. And he said I couldn’t cry over it because I was the one who had chosen him as a teacher. He said that I liked him because I felt I deserved to suffer and deserved to be punished. He said “isn’t it great to learn and be punished for your sins at the same time?” Like killing two birds with one stone. He was laughing at me again.
I began to feel very confused and scared. I didn’t want to set the frequency back to his station but suddenly I wanted to talk to him more, I had questions. But I tried to clear it from my head and then I got to work and got focused on that and the outside world again.