Why don’t you try Clozapine?
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I don’t have the most sound mind. I’m too sensitive and an honest person at a fault.
I guess I’m out of my mind too. I still will have my delusions. Maybe it’s the caffeine, but for some reason I think things are real.
I’m cautious with believing and talking with random strangers online. Seen good trolls too. Not saying that, but I did everything and more in trying to get help. I do suffer greatly.
I’ve been hospitalized over 20 times in less than 9 years not including outpatient. Maybe 30 if you do. I also realized they cannot help me. I cannot go to the best or better hosptials because I doubt they can help me and I cannot get the support or money. Mainly the financial and emotional support from family. It probably wouldn’t help in the end.
I have some problems that might not be able to fight off infection.
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In order of efficacy:
Clozapine, Amisulpride, Zyprexa/Risperdal.
I’m doing pretty good on the Haldol just have doubts here and there. Like the whole day I didn’t believe it but when I think about my boyfriend it comes back. Zyprexa and Risperdal didn’t really help me. I think Haldol is more helpful.
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I just think if they did take me as dictator, what use would they have for me because I wouldn’t cooperate. Then I think they could force me to, but how? Then I worry that they will force me to be some assassin. Or at the craziest that they can control my body or mind with technology. I don’t think that would happen though. So what use would they have for me? Anyone have any input regarding this? It’s just I think I have trauma from this which gives me fear anyway.
Do you have negative symptoms? When I had positive symptoms I had less negative symptoms for some reason, maybe its the dopamine.
I don’t really feel like doing anything either. I read about your negative symptoms, Aziz. But I don’t have flat affect. But women have this less I read. Could you answer the question about what they would do with me? What use would they have?
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You’re not North Korean and you don’t even speak Korean. Its impossible for you to be North Korea’s president.
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this sounds like standard psychotic delusion.
for me, my full blown psychosis started with delusions and then later it developed into normal volume voices and then other things.
so it is good that you are on haldol, i suppose, because that will prevent you from getting worse, hopefully.
I know it is not easy to do but just keep challenging your delusions with logic, and saying, no, this is not real, this is not real, acknowledge the thought, but then just say you are not real,(and try to believe that statement whilst saying it) and it will maybe take away some of its power.
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I’m just thinking they have this thing where they pick like a 1000 people, create clones to look like the North Korean dictator, and then use them for some purpose. Like maybe plotting them in places to plan assassinations? Or use them to do jobs in North Korea? I just feel like they will create me to be him and use me for some negative purpose so that I go to hell. I had visions of hell and some Jewish kids were telling me I would go there. Then after hearing Hitler it became the North Korean dictator. That I would become that. The trauma of experiencing that makes me still fearful or believe it might come true. Even though when I’m now talking about it it doesn’t seem like a real thing. It’s just going from really believing this would happen to not is a bridge that is hard to pass to. Because it felt so strong before.
You’re delusional but at least you’re not violent. I was lucky that Risperdal worked for my positive symptoms as I was homicidal/violent off meds and on non working meds like Zyprexa and on Latuda or on lower doses of other meds.
If they’re so quiet, how can he hear them?
But what if the plotting not clones but taking people, giving them plastic surgery, and then using them as PR or plotting at certain places is real? That’s the only reason I can think of to use me as the North Korean dictator. I’m thinking I can refuse to walk. If they need to kill me then I’ll let them. I won’t let them use me as PR and I’ll cover my face if they take me to assassination locations. That’s what I’m scared of. Being used that way. I’m still afraid of somehow being responsible and then going to hell. What do you make of this?
He hears other voices, not mine.
Oh, OK. My mistake.
I don’t really have the best advice, but I will give it a shot.
with delusions, it always ends up being something that cannot be proven so that you worry oh but what if it is true.
Just try to think, I am what I believe. Try to believe that actually, even though it may feel real, it is not.
it feels real, because I have a chronic disease, but I can actively act against it by the way you chose to live your life.
It is hard to make anything out of this tht can be beneficial for you , because it is your mind that believes it.
but hopefully with time,you will see that this is so unlikely that it is not worth worrying about.
hope that helps just a tiny bit, if not, well I tried.
I am still a bit afraid of this too.
I am still working on it…, fighting that ‘delusion’
Thats why I said I don’t believe that part (being controlled by technology) but what if I’m used to be plotted for PR or at assassination locations? Like they need people to look like the North Korean dictator so they give plastic surgery to certain people (like me). About 1000 I estimate. I’m starting not to believe this but the traumatic fear still makes me think about it.
I think, I have enough insight to tell you that this is unlikely enough for you not to worry about it.
as in, it is like believing that tomorrow all of the planets will crash onto earth.
you are safe, I think.