thanks guys, i had a rough night last night and had to phone the crisis line, everything just got too much and my head was all over the place, the guy on the phone was really good and i was talking with him for a long time.
after that i phoned my sister even though it was late she goes to her bed really late anyway and we had a good chat with her as well, i asked her if she could be my power of attorney if things went awry and she said she would, i just thought it would be a good idea in case i am hospitalised again or something so she can pay my bills and things if i am not there.
i also want her to be there for me if i get hospitalised so i am going to write out a list of rules if i get hospitalised like (not sure what yet but think its a good idea).
its just a back up plan in case things go awry, my dad was in charge of all of this but he’s not here now so apart from sweep my sister is the best person to ask and i trust her.
but apart from that i have been over at the new flat and it looks ok, i peaked in a window and the kitchen looks an ok size, i am on the first floor so no banging about upstairs anymore and no people walking past my window, i’m a bit worried about the noise though and what people might think about me. i have this picture on my wall and all i want to do is put it up in my new gaff and i have been wondering if it will be ok when i put it up.
this place is my first proper flat and the rent is quite low so if i decide i am ready to pay it it will be reasonable, bc i am not working and on benefits my rent gets paid for me.