Abortion was justifiable to her because an embryo had no value to her when she already had a baby.
Maybe you can listen to Louise hay meditation on you tube about forgiveness and letting go.
She also has a book called you can heal your life.
I never felt my parents could love me as much as I wanted and needed them to love me and I didn’t feel very wanted.
I am working on understanding them and forgiving and loving unconditionally.
I had a abortion when I was psychotic and my family told me I had to and I love my son and am very sorry.
Golly knows your mums reasons and I understand it’s painful and overwhelming to not feel wanted but I believe it can be healed so you feel better.
I used to sob “why does no one love me” and I really meant it.
It was overwhelming emotions.