I supposedly have a lot of hallucinations. For me they are usually more distracting than distressing. If that makes any sense? The negative symptoms definitely kill my quality of life but I don’t think I’d call them the most distressing for me either. To me it’s the disorganized thoughts and the cognitive symptoms. I hate having to re-read a paragraph several times to process it. I hate having delayed responses. I hate forgetting basic directions. I hate it when people aren’t able to understand what I’m trying to communicate. I hate rambling off topic without realizing I’m doing it. I hate having my mind go completely blank mid sentence. What about you guys? What’re your most distressing symptoms?
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For me it’s negatives the way I can just stop caring about everything at any given moment
Paranoia is the worst for me
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True, worse thing ever for me are God delusions. They almost killed me. I thought I was God and to prove it I tried killing myself twice. I was close twice. One intentional car accident and one intentional intoxication/overdose. Both landed me in the emergency.
I’m glad you’re still alive man @Aziz
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Thanks @TheCanuk
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I had a similar delusion at one point. I thought I was a deity and that sacrificing myself was the only way to prevent climate change and natural disasters.
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I had another delusion but it was later when I stopped my meds. For me the prepsychosis time and the 1st psychosis were worse than other psychosis. I thought that I will be married to a virgin girl in Heaven and that I should die before marrying her.
I didn’t proceed with suicide in this one unlike the God delusion.
Thank you for sharing. It really helps me feel less isolated in my illness.
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Right now my sza is basically well under control, for the most part I’m safe and free of symptoms except lack of motivation and I don’t really enjoy activities like I used to. Other than that I think I’m doing pretty good. My ocd is killing me though. Got to get that under control, that’s really distressing me.
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My most distressing symptom is when Alien the evil spirit in my head tells me to kill my husband and that I’m a murderer, and tries to control me.
Also when I sometimes get panic attacks
I can relate, I have terrible apathy and indifference, I don’t care about anything. I can’t even retain anything I read. I hate having negative symptoms.
Same here. I waste ungodly amounts of time. Also, the social anxiety is terrible.
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Existential fear, disconnect from loved ones, fragmentation of my thinking. Cant chose, none of them is fun.
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For me, my psychosis has gone into remission. However, my most distressing symptom is suicidal thoughts. I have strong suicidal ideation when I am depressed. I heard that it’s common in people who have PD. I’m glad that I upped my dose so that I don’t have to suffer these thoughts 24/7 along with really bad depression.
For me it’s when I start hearing my name being mentioned everywhere, and I don’t know if someone is actually adressing me, or I’m just making it up
I don’t know about you but I have suicidel thoughts and the pdoc put me on lithium Wich help me quite a bit.
The most distressing symptom for me is telepathy or mind reading by far.
I hated word salad
To me I was talking properly, and thought people could understand me, but I was talking gibberish, and no one could understand me at all.
That was my second episode when I got the SZ label.
Scary stuff what can happen to the mind
:-/