I like this thread for what it is and find it to be a positive thing. But when I looked at the lyrics of the song I couldn’t help but add these lines: “If I ever lose my mind. All my neurons shrink and die. If i ever lose my mind. Oh well. I won’t have to think no more.”
Hard for me to remember any of those right now
@tera, you made me cry with this one. Thank you for reminding me to be gentle.
I’m okay. I’m doing better this week, because I’m actually reaching out to my friends instead of trying to hide my problems and pretend I’m fine. It’s one of those life lessons that I have to relearn every year or so. Do you have any life lessons like that, where you keep forgetting what you’ve learned?
And are you okay? This is either very early or very late for you to be up.
seems like I have to relearn all life’s lessons every year. I keep doing the same things over and over again, expecting a different result. They say that’s the definition of insanity. But I guess if I change one little thing each year eventually I’ll get it. I’m sure I’ll be like eighty saying “oh I get it now!”
I’m sorry things are hard for you now. I just want you to know I love you and if you need to talk I would be happy to listen. Okay lady?
yeah I’m up early bc of nap yeasterday
Thanks, I really appreciate it. You are a wonderful person to know.
I do not trust it. I don’t see how staring at walls and not being able to talk in intelligible sentences is good for personal growth. I call ■■■■■■■■.
good point, maybe that wasn’t the best quote! I second calling bullsh** on myself. Here’s a better one (hopefully)
This is fortuitous I just found a job at work I want to apply for, it would be a promotion. But I think I can only work it full time and I currently only work four days a week. Oh, and I have to write an essay for my job application! But I’ll give it a crack!
I took a big step in my recovery yesterday. I joined a women’s trauma group. I found out that a whole bunch of things I was blaming on schizophrenia are actually PTSD symptoms. That was interesting. The other women were very relatable, and I am looking forward to going back again.
I also officially started my internship, and it’s a lot of fun. It’s mostly administrative work right now, but I feel like I’m doing something productive with my life again.
@tera I heard a quote today that I thought you might like. I don’t have a fancy picture, but:
“You have emotions. They don’t have you.”
I am proud of you for taking this step for yourself. It looks like your embracing a healthier future. I too suffer with some PTSD symptoms and it can be lonely and terrifying. I know for me I never felt closer to losing my mind than when I’m “time traveling” alone with no one even having a clue I’ve even left the room. So I applaud you sweet lady please keep us posted on your progress.
Hopefully you’ll be able to share stories about the kids when the time comes.