I feel too retarded to hold down a job.
dont worry chordy, you dont need to work and you are not a retard (i hate that name) 
I feel guilty accepting social security. A really beat myself up about it.
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dont worry, you are very lucky you are in a country that gives so much to their sick and disabled people, i am grateful for what i have been getting and i feel like they have helped me so much, it shows that they care for giving so much,
I wish I could befriend myself about it. My parents were against it. I don’t think they ever realized my illness.
you have a genuine illness chordy and you are entitled to get as much help as possible 
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Thank you, daydreamer. I am always saying that I just let myself get soft.
i too feel guilty accepting social security, often I don’t know what to do with myself through out the day. I get bored so easily and lose focus. my father in law feels that since he pays into social security he is entitled to take as much of mine as we supposedly owe him.
when i was staying at home i had to pay an allowance for my upkeep to my mum for things like food and rent etc it wasn’t a lot but it helped her pay the bills, she would never take too much.
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It wouldn’t bother me so much if they didnt take so much and if they actually used it to pay bills instead of just spending it on stuff for them and going out to eat.
Money is just a fact of life like any other and I have to give it the time and respect it needs. Never too old o learn.
I’m a disabled paratrooper chordy!! How in the flying monkeys do you think I feel!? I want to kill the enemy! Grab the devil herself by the nose and rip an appendage off the cess mess. But I can’t defeat this yet, and I need to know this: I need more help that others cause I confront hell every day in hallucinations. Hunter S. Thompson would have said this was a LIFELONG bad trip under blazze’ unperfect scandalous mess that made no sense.
As I leave the scene and understand that this shouldn’t make anyone feel guilty. We are cosmic warriors, shamans under the gun of torture shaping their world to take the harm and hurt to growth and life. I am so happy I found this site because I’m a full blown diagnosee since 2008. I’ve been under the gun of this cosmic scrutiny since 2007.
I have felt bad, about recieving disability and not working anymore. But I snap to and remember that feeling sorry didn’t get the work done. ANd even acknowledging your enemy’s presence mentally is the first and biggest mistake in schizophrenia. Don’t give and inch,
“Hide your thoughts, Luke. THey do you credit, but they could be used to serve the Emperor”
Obi Wan Kenobi