i have memories but it isn’t a lot of things, things have been coming back gradually but i have forgotten a huge amount, i think we suppress a lot of these memories, buried deep within our unconscious minds and it only surfaces when we get to a certain point of recovery thats my personal experience of it anyway,
idk why i suppressed my childhood memories like that maybe i didn’t want anyone to see me as a child, maybe i decided to push that part of me away for whatever reason, some of it has come back to me though and i like that.
i didn’t start to get problems until i was about 14/15 yrs old so i have a lot to remember 'not that i’ll remember all of it though.
some things i do remember includes
- youth club
- swimming class
- climbing the church roof and throwing tiles off (flooding the church)
- getting money from ‘scrambles’ at weddings
- shouting ‘scramble’ at a funeral and having the minister come to our door to complain
- jumping gardens and smashing greenhouses
- drinking and smoking
- stealing from my mum
- stealing from shops
- fighting
- playing football
i was a bit naughty but i got better,
from 0-5 i was noisy then i think i was ok from age 5-12 then naughty from 12-14 then brief period of normality followed by pre-sz symptoms, then i worked from 16-19 and was diagnosed at about 19/20 yrs old then 20-27yrs over medicated, then 27-32 doing better in recovery until present lol,
my whole life in a nutshell lol, the blink of an eye.