My dream is to sell a website I"m making to Spotify one day, but I doubt it will happen if I don’t get off my meds. i’m uber-frustrated because I’m taking a Golang course online and having trouble early on just understanding concepts. Whereas once I was a great, fast learner, I am now average and pretty slow.
I guess what I’ve been wondering, and if anyone knows this please share: does prolonged trauma damage the learning-center of our brains or is it just the meds
Meds can slow you down. But I think the disease itself is the main problem. You hear a lot about cognitive problems in schizophrenia.
Meds keep you alive however. Without them you could think that you could fly and jump off a building.
I feel like a genius off meds but the psychosis causes perseveration and memory loss. It’s like a Ferrari vs a Toyota Prius. On meds, I’m stable and retain what I learn but have trouble with difficult concepts and have a hard time focusing. That and I think when I’m in psychosis I make more mistakes. Maybe I’m less efficient but my working memory is like double and I can think faster.
I’m learning programming too. I think the weight bothers me as much as the cognitive problems. My current med regimine makes me happy.
I feel less able to program and make art due to sz but I feel there are dumb people who do great things. So I just keep practicing at it and accept that it won’t come as naturally as before.
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