Hello again, it’s been awhile, I’m not doing so good. My depression is very bad and my psychiatrist says its treatment resistant depression. I’m taking 300mg effexor, 300mg lyrica, 10mg abilify and 5mg of zprexa.
I do not have schizophrenia but some days I actually think I do. My diagnosis is somataform disorder, anxiety and depression.
I’m swollen as well from the meds. I am not improving, but just recently started on zyprexa. My psychiatrist doesn’t want to mess around too much with the meds.
I’m due to see a psychologist to talk about my complex past. This illness has taken an awful lot out of me, I’m just not myself and haven’t been these past four years, with the depression worsening considerably these last two years.
Some days, I believe I have schizophrenia and other days I believe I have MS. I’m in terrible fear and on edge a lot. No psychiatrist says I have schizophrenia but I wonder are the meds playing tricks on my mind?
I’m treble the size I was, plus swollen looking, that’s the meds and the sedentary lifestyle I suppose. I’m perhaps delusional as well. So tired and slow, not sure what I’m doing, clumsy and awkward, dont want to be around people, self care gone bad, my illness affects everything.
Does schizophrenia cause symptoms like mine? I am fearful I am developing schizophrenia. That’s what I’m thinking right now.
I’m trying my best to stay positive and fight it all, but its draining daily. I remain hopeful though of recovery because things cant get much worse I hope, and I fear this treatment resistant depression as well. My psychiatrist says if zyprexa doesn’t work, lithium should work and she may try me on that, although close monitoring will be needed on that med.
Have any of you tried lithium? Is it good for depression if nothing else works. I definitely think my physical symptoms are causing a lot of my depression, but it’s really bad now for two years with no real lift at all. My psychiatrist says it’s like trying to restart a battery with me, trying to find the right combination of meds and therapy.
I know a lot of help is needed from myself too, like doing walks, trying to socialize, listening to the radio, anything to distract my racing thoughts. I am trying. I’m just very sad and even feeling sorry for myself:(
Things are very difficult which is why I’m wondering what’s going on with me. I’m scared of my illness. I hope to get better, but something is definitely very wrong with me.
Anyone here think it sounds like schizophrenia? I do not hear voices or hallucinate but my thoughts race all day, fearful thoughts.
Thanks