Man, this is my place now

DX'd - Other
1

Saw glimpses of the state of mind and setting of thinking and the thinking towards life when I was sane in my memories

Looked out my eyes and I knew it was gone and would never come back and thought of all I’ve been through, chocked up

Let the madness take me in, this is the only home I know, have known, and ever will know

Bitter sweet feeling today, I know the state of mind of insanity is a harsh wicked, out there, alienish place, weird manner of thinking, state of mind and way to experience the world in [mind ties into imaginary tied] but this is my home, and home is where you make it.

At least I don’t have to try to catch the butterfly of sanity in my mind any longer.

This is my home

2 Likes
2

I’m glad that you’ve reached a point of acceptance.

To use a metaphor: You’re swimming in the ocean and get caught in a riptide. Most people try to swim back to the beach, fighting the riptide, but some people swim parallel to the beach.

Just keep swimming.

1 Like
3

I must profess my ignorance what is the correct thing to do in that instance… I live in a desert.

1 Like
4

Consider it more of as

Acceptance of the state being

Transition

1 Like
5

@SP2342

Swim parallel until you’re out of the riptide, then swim to the beach.

6

Are you taking meds currently?

1 Like
7

I’m coming home…

1 Like
8

Yes

2mg of Ativan daily (benzo)
Sarocosine

9

Didn’t you stop taking APs a while back? Maybe talk with your pdoc about trying an AP again.

1 Like
10

Weird, why would you suggest that.

On the other hand, getting off APs was the greatest improvement to my recovery 3.5years ago, a untypical thing to happen. I am however talking to my pdoc to get on a antidepressant due to my deperson/realization.

Thanks for the suggestion though

11

And yet, your opening post was about making “madness” your home. This doesn’t sound like recovery to me.

12

I can understand where you get the idea, and understand why that can be seen as concerning.
I’m completely stable though and am okay, thank you for the suggestion

It’s through efforts of therapy I have got pretty much all my help, many of the methods being contrary to rejection of inner experiences

1 Like