It’s so hard for me to make a connection with somebody, i feel like i’m not good enough to Be loved or love somebody, usually i crack in social situation ( work, school, etc) and can’t say a word. People seem to have something to say about everything, i know they say what they think but they say IT with confidente, like it’s the absolute truth, and IT is for them, i don’t know how to do that and that’s why i have few friends.
I dont trust my instincts… Anybody else having this problem?
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Hey there, I know how you feel. I don’t trust my own perception of reality enough to form strong opinions to talk about either. Unfortunately I’m not really in a position to give advice on how to overcome your dilemma seeing as I’m still dealing with it myself, but I wanted to let you know you’re definitely not alone.
I hope someone with helpful input comes along to help you, and possibly me. 
Welcome, where are you from?
You could start by getting into a clubhouse or a group for people with serious mental disorders, they are usually very kind and quiet people that listen to what you say. 
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I can talk to people easily, but a connection never forms. Once they’re out of the room all sorts of weird thoughts begin occurring to me like they’re talking about me and how weird I was. Being with people and having a good conversation is like a sugar rush to me, I get all high and easily able to handle it in the moment, but later comes a crash.
Unfourtonly in romania we dont have such groups, at least not in my Little city where i live, when i was hospitallized i met a beautiful girl with the same disorder as me and we talk daily, is good to know that i can share, and today i found this site which seems nice.
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@Coldcomfort do You take meds for manic state?
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Welcome to the forum!!! I’m from Germany 
for what issues your having have you tried telling yourself “nope that’s not true they’re not talking about me or criticizing” and if the thought says “well what if’’ again say “no it’s just my mind. Everything is fine I wasn’t awkward, and if I was so what, they probably don’t care”
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I don’t think I get manic. When I have no graceful exit from talking to someone, I’m surprisingly capable of doing it, considering how shy I normally am. I never initiate though.
Maybe that is mania though… Possibly a side effect of abilify? Idk I just get all sorts of weird paranoid thoughts after having a good convo with somebody. It’s not fun having everything go well and then thinking I made a fool of oneself. You know?
EDIT: Welcome to the forum, btw
@anon51414962 is from Romania too.
I’m really sorry you can’t join a group like this… 
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@SailorTheFox59 You are making a good point. Somethimes i know this but i forgot a lot and let my mind wonder, maybe from the meds…
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Welcome to the forum. At least u can talk here 
I don’t judge and I have issues myself so. I’m also sorry u can’t go to a support group 
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Hi @somebody yeah I’m from Romania and also @Andrey too. I also have hard time for making friends unfortunately. @zeno thanks for tagging me. @far_cry0 we have a new member here, you can ask him anything. Don’t worry @somebody because far cry is a friendly member Take care
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Thanks formalname …!!! I will ask definetly…!!! Is he from romania…???
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@somebody my romanian friend what are u up to…??? Which medication do u take…!!! Are u stable on meds…???
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I manage, i am a warrior, always hâd been…
Rispem, depakine and diazepam
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Hey warrior how old are u my friend…???
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21… Been fighting togheter with meds for the last 2 years
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@somebody
U are too young man…i like u for that… do u work in a job part time or full time…!!! Cuz i dont work…!!
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Part time…
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@somebody
I cant even work part time due to disability…!!! What happened to the girl that u met in hospital man…!!!