Do i really contact Jiang Qing?
It feels real
27th of January was the peak.
Today I had fluent voices, mainly her
I had a tattoo of Madame Mao.
It’s my 18th tattoo. (1+8=9, my favourite number)
Red Guards,
march on,
destroy, destroy, destroy
Are you feeling ok today?
Mood wise, yes.
Voices, too many
I talk with the dead, or maybe they’re undead,
never dying beings, angels, like Stalin
Are you taking your meds
Sure.
That’s
why
my
mood is ok.
Antidepressant
and antipsychotics
make me joyful.
But
I
Have
Fluent
Voices
These
Days.
I
Don’t
Know
Why.
Psychic or psycho?
“chaos is your food.
chaos is the white page”
She brings chaos
just as in Cultural Revolution in 1966
They told me to not share
with others my voices,
otherwise they’ll stop
and they’ll leave me in
silence and loneliness.
Am I desperate for friendship
that i need voices to fill this gap?
“let’s worship chaos.
Let’s turn chaos yellow”
“i ask nothing from you.
Just to write down exactly what I say”
“chaos is your significant other”
Since January 27 i have voices.
January 27 was the peak