Ugh I am in trouble. Last night I went out with the new guy I talked about and it went really really well, at least for me. He wants me to loose weight tho after I showed him my pre-illness pics. I really wanna break up with my old bf but he will go insane. I will go insane. Debate tournament was fun and the kids said they canāt wait for me to sub for them!
Here is a pic of me as a kid pre illness and on the debate team, for exampleā¦
I have a headacheā¦ Work starts tomorrow as a parapro tutor. I should try to loose weight if I am to keep this new guy. But all I want is bubble tea and some time offā¦
I donāt think it is wrong. I may be putting it the wrong way, but he is definitely a nice guy, lol. In fact I have never dated a jerk and am not too worried I ever will. No one was ever mean to me beforeā¦ He talks to me every day and tells me good morning and good night. I just wanna loose weight anyways. He will be happy. And he likes me either way.
Girl, you donāt owe anyone weight loss but yourself, so just make sure youāre doing it for you. I donāt like to see girls worry about their weight because of a partner; I had two partners pressure me into weight loss (one on the more extreme end with forcefully changing my diet). So just be careful, okay?
Iām gonna mirror the others and say that it is a major red flag that heās like this already. I had guys be like that immediately, and the relationship fell apart within a month because he started nitpicking other things about me that werenāt up to his standards. You should probably be careful with dating this guy if you should be dating him at all (and I am with the others that you should walk).
Idk I will take into consideration dumping him but honestly he is really nice, lol. And I really think he is pretty interesting. He likes German language, he can sing pretty wellā¦ He is a bit weird! I know that isnāt everything in a relationship but I like that weirdness lol. In other words Iām starting to like him.
So I guess what everyone is saying is that I should date neither guys? Maybe that is something to consider!
Seems like Sodium Benzoate does more for me than sarcosine. On my second day of .5 grams. I skipped a day of Sodium Benzoate. Iām taking 4g of sarcosine.
I tried 1gram of Sodium Benzoate and it stimulated me too much.
Getting back into the gym, again.
Yesterday, I had a white out panic attack, while the lady was discussing the membership and showing me around.
I felt better after 40 minutes on the elliptical and stretching, though.
Today I walked there and then realized I forgot my gym shoes, so I just walked and around for an hour and then went home. Hopefully tomorrow Iāll be a little bit smarter.
That must have been a very long time ago, because I havenāt been to the gym in forever.
Unless youāre mixing me up with someone else.
I have been walking lots aging doing home workouts, but not the gym, in over a year at least.