I have therapy in about 30 minutes, so Iāll be leaving soon. Probs will do the dishes an hour or so after I get home, then itās time to chill until the bf gets off work. Maybe yay?
Took .5 grams of Sodium Benzoate. Iām also taking 4 grams of sarcosine. I wonder if thatās too much?
I feel wired.
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Iām sleepy. Cannot wait until bedtime tonight. Iām going to go to bed early if I can.
I need to get curtains up in our bedroom. Well, Iāll have to find them first. We still havenāt unpacked a lot of stuff. But with the time change next week I donāt want the sun coming in so early.
i have to raise my gpa to get into the degree program Iām pursuing.
I didnāt attend many classes when I was younger and wasted a couple thousand dollars, now its hurting my gpa. like I was too lazy to get out by the withdraw date.
fortunately I found an online community college that will be paid for by a vocational rehab program. ill never have to show up on campus I can do everything from home.
I may have to take 10 classes or so before I can transfer. which should take me a year fall spring and summer.
good news is its paid for by the government this time.
This is how I look without makeup or glasses. I am having self image issues and they are worse without my glassesā¦ But just felt like posting to share. You think it looks ok?
You look great for no-makeup. I look pretty awful without makeup. But donāt worry too much. I donāt care about others opinion much anymore. I do what I like.
I you all.
I get so frustrated that i canāt seem to do anything to directly improve my life right now. My case worker said I should try to volunteer after support group is over and if my blood sugar issues become a problem, I can quit, since itās volunteer, no worries.
Iām concerned about the public transportation Iād have to take if I worked. If I did find a friend or girlfriend, Iād have to use them too. My experience with them is they are very unprofessional. One time they failed to come back to get me on a return trip and even after i called them they didnāt send anybody to come get me.
When I was signed up for college they failed to pick me up twice, and the lady on the phone said āWe canāt guarantee you a ride.ā Then what is your freaking purpose!
IDK maybe they are better now but I doubt it. I think itās a money issue because itās government funded.
Either the drivers or the administrators arenāt paid enough to give a damn. Maybe both.
I mean this was almost 20 years ago though.
Sometimes I really hate this area. But I donāt have friends or too very helpful family members to help me go somewhere better. The entire county is bad.
Itās too bad Uber is so expensive and also the local transportation that I have good experience with but is expensive. My insurance is paying for that for medical appointments. If the unreliable, cheap transportation were like that, my fears would definitely be settled.
I guess because of the depression Iām always thinking ahead. Often about things that can go wrong. But that doesnāt mean they arenāt valid and thought out concerns.
I suppose i could bring my PlayStation Vita to work if I got a job, and if the van doesnāt pick me up I can play it until I can get home somehow. Thatās if anybody is able and willing to.
Iād prefer to work online but such jobs often arenāt easy to get.
You look good. But I hope you have contacts and can see ok.
I can see the weight loss btw
So why you canāt use public transportation?
The public transportation I can afford is highly unreliable. Thatās the one Iām talking about in my post when I talk about being left behind and them not even bothering to send anyone after I called and other unprofessional crap. Itās not like a bus that has stops, at least not where I live. For places nearer to where their based they have stops. But the have to come to your door here. So itās not like if they donāt pick me up and donāt feel like correcting their mistake, that I can just wait for the next time a bus comes again.
Thereās another one thatās very good. My insurance pays for me to use them for medical appointments and thatās itā¦
For everything else theyāre very expensive. Like if my math is right over $30 for a round trip to a nearby town that has the most jobs in the county.
So in short I technically can and likely will. But in my experience, they suck, and I will likely deal with the same crap I did before.
Itās an exercise in patience, truly. Wow and wow and wow!!!
You never posted a no makeup selfie but Iām sure you would look great!
I just came home, it is midnight and I just made some chamomile tea. I feel tired.
I will drink my tea, brush my teeth, apply my nighttime moisturizers and creams and sleep with a cold sleep mask on.
Tomorrow is a new day.
In the meantime, I will research some posing techniques for my Sunday photoshoot. I really need to nail these pictures to add it to my portfolio.
@Ninjastar sorry to bother you but I am trying to update my profile pic and itās not updating. I donāt know what happened.
The reason why I tagged you is because you are the only mod I spoke to once.
Sometimes it takes a few minutes to switch over. Or, if you like, you can post the picture here and I can change it for you.
Done! As payment, I would like three pictures of fancy desserts, outer space, or cats.
Wow!! that was quickā¦ thanks for the express service. I am on the hunt for your paymentā¦ stay tuned.